Laura's
Playground presents the Transgendered Poetry of Kristin.
Change
It changes sorrow to mirth,
There's a switch in my mind,
It's a change in my heart
that never does start
without something
from which
I part.
Simplicity
simplicity
is easy till you find no innocence
candor is open till you see your folly
clarity is full of happiness till it's lucid and plain
though
your eyes I see the world
though my eyes I see you
though my eyes into your eyes I see the future
love
is blind 'til it is at first sight
hate eats at you to feed your emptiness
lust drives you 'til you burn
against
the backdrop of heaven
against the blind lights of hell
against it is the power of your presence
envy
is my eyes and they shine
desire in my heart as it beats so loud
need controls my thoughts beyond hope
away
from who I am will I be, till I am someone else
away from my past is my future, till it catches me
away from you I see me, till you take my mirror away
Storm
is
this supposed to be a ship lost in a great storm?
or is it a drop of rain that mists to nothing over the desert?
perhaps it's a low echo that sounds in the deep cave of the soul?
maybe the dull ache that hits you from a cold chill?
it
is silence in the roar of the crowd
it is the bitter taste of fear, dread and anxiety that wells inside
it is awakening of a flower in the cold frost of winter
it is the blissful nothingness of sleep
it is your own cruel laugh taunting you
the
laugh that is the storm in the desert
echoing in the cold silence of a bitter winter's dream
Hate
and Rules
ALWAYS
BE REAL, be honest and true to yourself, to others and your outlook
on life.
TRUST, trust yourself and trust others, never stop, but
BE NAIVE, find what it is to never be naive, and never to lose being
naive.
DON'T WORRY, does worry help your problems? Then make it harder?
UNDERSTAND, that it's never going to be easy and it's never going to
be fair.
FIND BALANCE, karma is the painful master, kind, but very very unforgiving.
LOVE, above all else find love, in yourself, in others and in the world
around you.
Things that happened since I last wrote:
I tried to commit suicide several times.
I was in the hospital for trying to commit suicide.
I stopped going to work at the beginning of December and today
is my first day back at work.
I had a birthday.
Went to go see my dad and sisters, niece and week old nephew
(who is so cute) for Christmas weekend.
Started going to a transgender support group every week.
