Laura's
Playground presents the Transgendered Poetry of Lillianna Page 4
This
is for my friend Deborah who had started the Angels here to the forum
"Callin
all Angels hear my plee...
Please come and take me.....
Show me the way home so that I will never be lost
Let my heart not be burden with a cost
I wait in silence, no sound at all
And yet I still beckon the Angels to my call....
I grow tired eyes feeling heavy start to close
I hear a noise and think of them silence starts to flow
My mind is going starting to drift away
When I hear a voice sweetly say
I am here to answer your plee
For it is I to come and take thee
I open my eyes with wonder and awe
That is when I saw
The most beautiful Angel smiling over me
Around the face was such a glow
The feeling of joy starts to flow
No longer am I scared and alone
For now I will be going home
The Angel says come take my hand
This I do now understand
My hand joins their hand hold on tight
The sky opens up oh what a sight
Then I start to ascend to heights above
Below I see my shell, but know this to be true
The love that I share I spread to all of you...
And when it starts to gently mist or rain
Know that it is the Angels who come again
Cry they do, sorrow, and weep
For now I can rest my eternal sleep..."
(c)
Lilianna 6-19-05
Daddy
I
was inspired one evening while walking this could be consider poem or
song lyric and I dedicate this to all my friends past, present and future....
Daddy
please be kind to me
Oh can't you see
I'm your daughter too!
I
never played with soldier toys
Always liked the boys
It's in my heart so true.....
Daddy
please be kind to me
Oh can't you see
I'm your daughter too!
Daddy
please understand
I am woman not a man
Show me that you love me true.....
When the seed is planted it is coverd up by soil
Then water to bring it to life as not to spoil
The sun shines down upon me
It gives me warmth to be
I sprout and grow and now become
The flower for all to see
You
see my petals closed as I wait for the right time
And then suddenly the petals one by one
Gently unfolding to reveal something magical you see
For the beauty of the flower is me
I
went to visit a relative years now past
He can rest in peace at last
Tears stream down my face
Oh I feel so out of place
Kneeling in front of the marker I pray
I think, I cry, my thoughts I must say
When I look up I see the field of stones
One upon one in many rows
The wind blows
There are many this day to pay their respects
Quiet the sound not a voice to be heard
And yet there are silent screams of sadness
Birds
fly from tree to tree
Their flight that makes them oh so free
The suns shines down upon me
A lonely Piper plays amazing grace
While tears of sadness gently streaming
And still you can hear the silent screaming
From the heart it aches you see
For the loss of those who used to be
Silence is golden to a degree
A shadow has come over me
So
when you feel alone and blue
There is nothing that you can do
Go to the field of stones and remember them best
For now they sleep the eternal rest.......
(c) Lilianna 5-31-05
Love
me I do
Love
me I do
My heart is true
To find the right guy
Even when I am shy
Soft I feel to the touch
Feeling that I am loved so much
When I walk I walk with grace
As you will see the smile on my face
I
have found him and he loves me so
This a special relationship grows
Eyes meeting making contact
I can not help, but to act
I place my arms around him smiling as i do
I know now that are hearts are true
Love
me I do
My heart so true
Love him I do each and every day
I can't keep my feelings at bay
Feeling the love that we share
There is nothing that I could compare
To share our love yes we do
Love me ...... I do
(c) Lilianna 6-1-05
I'm
not your lover
I
met a guy walking down the street who asked me if I would like a treat
He seemed nice and caring at the time
Little did we know he had committed a crime
First thing I remember was his smile
He looked at me for a long while
I liked but as a friend
I knew it was the end
He wanted me oh so badly
I did not now how to tell him sadly
My feelings were not there for him you see
Its now or never it just has to be
I'm
not your lover oh can't you see
I have tried to tell you so you would be free
Communication is all I do
I'm not your lover I am not for you
I'm
not your lover
And you are feeling blue
I can only hope that you
Will only see what I want to be
A friend for you and you to me
He
called so may times
It was hard for him to do
He cried and cried all day long
So this will end the song......
(c)
Lilianna 5-28-05
"To
be or not to be? That is the question?"
Answer: Just be yourself
A
label by any other name is a label
We label things and people each day
I wonder what the people would say?
We label by race to tell us apart
We label by sex to distinguish are counterparts
We label the good, the bad, and the ugly too!
Sometimes I think society labels to much, I do
When can this madness end for the label must go
Yet here we are and the labels do show
But as we use the labels each and every day
What will happen when there is no more labels left to say
You will here I am sorry that there are no more labels today
Funny how people, society does not know what to say
We have exhausted the labels one and all
So now what do we do, who do we call?
Society
must learn a hard lesson I think
For labeling anything really stinks!
So, remember how important you are each and everyday
Never label anyone, I must say
The world would be a kinder, more gentle place
Working together at such a great pace
Then the labels would have to go
There is no place for them that I do know
So
goodbye to the labels as you can see
Working together you and me
(c) Lilianna 6-7-05
And
When
And when indeed as we wear the mask and armor to protect us from
harm
When you feel uncomfortable you hear that alarm
Protect us from those who intend to hurt us
The mask hides the true self from those outside
The armor protects our hearts that we have inside
The playground is where we meet and chat
I ponder and then wonder if we should combat
Never knowing how we feel inside
Gently, softly tears stream from my eyes
Until I met a friend like you
It was then I knew what I had to do
Kindness and love from my heart
Let our friendship blossom never be apart
And
when you need a laugh or two
Just chat with me and the crew
And
when you need a shoulder to cry
Just remember that we are all human inside
Friendship
is definitely a wonderful thing
I hope that your heart will sing
"So
you see I found my angel in you, and that will forever be.
Now I walk through life with my angel with me."
Angels
I
spread my wings and soar into the sky
When I look down I start to cry
The gentle tears drops from above
With the flying white dove
Forever I will be by your side
Even when you choose to confide
The secrets that you share with me
We become Oh so happy!
I walk with you with each step we take
With this little prayer:
God,
Bless my Sister for all the things that you do
Watch over her and protect her from harm
Let her heart be of love so true
God, please take her under your arm
Hug her for she is so sweet
Comfort her when it is needed
Angels we do love to meet
How we would be so nicely treated
Angels
hear my plee
Together we will be happy
So spread your wings and take flight
The wings are thunderous, full of might
Watching over us all
Oh hear the Angel's beckon call
My heart pounds, my heart race
Only to be in good grace...
Love,
Lil (c) 6-9-05 For my great Friend Deborah.. We are all Angels
How
Selfish I am
I
am shelfish for thinking about taking care of me
I am number one you see
I only ask that you do not follow me
I am selfish as can be
I am shelfish that I take time to further educate myself to be better
On a fall evening between classes wearing a sweater
I only ask that you do not follow me
I am selfish as can be
I am shelfish for that I exist only to know that others die before me
The shelfish act of love to not let them go
I think of how I live for all to see
As they gently lower the body down the hole
I am selfish as can be
I am selfish that I never learned to help my friends
To care for them, to cherish them to the end
With that I in turn will send
The message I am selfish as can be
I am selfish for the fact that I can not know what love is about
Sometimes love is in and sometimes love is out
And other times I here my friends shout
I believe that there is no doubt
I am selfish as can be
(c)
6-29-05 Lilianna
I
Exist Therfore I Am
I
exist therefore I am
No other as unique as me
I am special as can be
I exist therefore I am
*****************************
Life within in me bright and true
I share my love with all of you
I am flesh and bones with a soul
I have Life in a big bowl
*******************************
Shine I do for others to see
Follow my lead as I lead the way
The flame of Life burns for me
I exist, I exist for today
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(c) Lilianna 6-29-05
All
Good Things must Come to an end
By
the time you read this I will have blown the candle out
The flame of life will now be a smoldering smoke
The friends that I have will live on and progress thru life
Some
say that life does not have an ending, only a beginning
Others say that life has an ending
We believe that which we will learn from our parents and things we learn
throughout our lives
That there is a place for each of us
We sometimes wonder when we close our eyes where will we go?
Will an Angel appear before us to take us to the other side?
Will a loved one that has passed come to our aid to guide us?
I cared so much about life and my friends that they do not even know
how much I do care
Yet, I am alone in life
A friend of mine was trying to commit suicide
And as a friend I tried to talk them out of it
I cried really hard last night only to find that when I called them
today there was no answer
What would I find if I went to their home?
If they indeed actually committed suicide then what kind of friend am
I if I could not stop them?
The burden of pain and heartache I now carry
I suffer and cry of tears of saddness knowing that they may not be here
I cry even as I write now because I know my fate
I just wish there was no hate
I just wish that for one moment people of this world would take one
moment to look at one another and place their differences aside
I just wish that people would try to get along and work as one instead
of being divided and falling to pieces
Even though these are wishes, there is always HOPE for humankind
I do not feel that there is hope for me
My therapist is making me feel concerned
My family is non responsive
I feel as if I am losing my friends
People at work are snubbing me
With all of this going on what is there to live for?
I lived for the day and not worried about tomorrow
Yet, tomorrow brings another batch of sorrow
Before I go, I just want to say one thing
My mind and soul are of woman and that will never change
Good bye and God Bless you all!
